Change.
That word, I have decided, is at the root of all of my recent struggles. Okay, maybe the concept. The point is, however, that change has honestly been at the center of all of my recent discomfort in so many areas of my life. Personal growing pains, I suppose.
I had this abrupt realization that I'm asking for- even demanding- change in plenty of areas of my life right now. And in truth, it's right that I'm asking. It's needed. It's also scary as Hell now that I've named it and I realize how much change I need to be satisfied. And I'm wondering if this is anathema to my idea of embracing imperfection. The idea of needing change in my closest emotional relationship, in my spiritual realm, and in my professional environment....that's alot of change. The net result, I suspect, will be either spectacular success or catastrophic failure. Let's try for the first, shall we?!?
Happiness/gratitude list, 26 June version:
1. Being able to get my bike into its travel box in 15 minutes or less. Sure, it's a little thing but it's satisfying.
2. Having the opportunity for a little thing to make a friend really happy- when she needed it.
3. New sandals. New sandals that don't hurt the broken foot. Hooray!
4. Time away that helps me realize that things go on without my presence but that I am still needed and wanted at home.
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