I have the uncontrollable urge to crawl into bed early with the Sunday NY Times Crossword, so that's precisely what's on the agenda. I count it as making space for rest- and a bit of creativity, I suppose. In a perfect world I would be diligently reflecting on all of the stuff that we covered today, but I'm honestly not sure how much "new" I got out of it. The opening panel was great, the mid-day session was great, but my morning workshop felt a little unstructured (especially when she ran out of time and had to cover 1/2 of the intended material in the last 15 minutes). Afternoon workshop was better than the morning one, but I was still lukewarm on it. From what I'm hearing my problems are somewhat unique. And I'm most grateful I didn't sign up for the work-life balance bonus session tomorrow night because it would definitely be all about family management; sometimes I feel like they need the separate sub-section "work-life balance for the single and childless". I don't intend that meanly, it's just that our balance is different. And as Leigh recently pointed out to me she has the kids as an excuse to leave by 5 or come in a little late so it forces her to take time away from all-work, all the time. I simply have to make the decision that it's okay to not be the first one there and last one out- and I'm working on that. So far I'm doing okay with it, but I have this sinking feeling that at some point I'm going to have this panic attack consisting of thinking that I haven't been getting enough done and I'll go into overdrive to try to fix it. If y'all catch me doing that, please douse me. Seriously.
Happiness/ Gratitude list, 13 July 2008 edition:
- Catching up with two of my favorite friends last night, even if it was over the phone. I really, really miss Bill and Erica, and I can't wait to go to Kauai in December. I appreciate that they tolerate what a poor job I do nurturing friendships sometimes, and they love me in spite of it.
- Feeling stronger and my foot getting better :) My workout this morning was one I haven't done in just over a month. My foot felt great today, and it's amazing to realize how truly crummy I felt from my strep/ PSGN.
- As much as I've been grappling with work and institutional stuff (okay, call schedules. There, I said it.), I'm realizing that I have some amazing resources and advocates in my corner. Not everyone is blessed with a Jeff or a Leigh, and I'm fortunate to have them.
- Crab Cakes. I heart crab cakes.
- Lyle Lovett. That voice. So beautiful.
- The New York Times Sunday Crossword. Which I must get to before it gets too late....
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