Hmmm....really, I have no great flashes of brilliance today. I think that I got all of my pertinent thoughts about understanding shame and practicing resilience out of my system early in the week. When talking with my counselor/ coach this week he pointed out to me that the sense of shame and how it is truly a self-imposed isolation. We ourselves are the ones that set the meter for something that merits a sense of shame, and we ourselves are the ones that decide to hold our heads up and say, "No, there is no shame in this; I'm being the best version of myself that I can be." That's when the bounce-back, the resilience starts coming into play. I am eager for my topic to ponder this week- make space for rest, creativity, and gratitiude. These have been huge puzzle pieces that I've been playing with for the last 6 weeks or so, and I believe that my time considering them so far has been entirely beneficial. The gratitude thing I'm even getting down really well. Rest? Well, yes, I'm doing better- and I just got done setting some boundaries for the August/ September call schedules. That said, I know that I still have a long way to go here. Creativity? Some of it is here in this blog (a very small amount!), and I look forward to considering other outlets for recharging.
Happiness/Gratitude list, 12 July 2008 edition:
- Sleeping in a bit, even if it wasn't in the plan and meant that I had to hurry out the door to catch my flight!
- Reading another great/ fun novel. The Enchantress of Florence by Salman Rushdie. I'm about halfway into it, and I'm really enjoying it. Honestly, I could probably devour the whole thing tonight but I suspect that would make me not-functional for meetings tomorrow.
- A wonderful supper tonight. Zola in DC. Delicious food, great service....I really love this place.
- Having the opportunity to be here in DC for this meeting. I think that hearing the experiences and sharing the struggles of other junior female academic physicians will be enlightening and uplifting. More on that over the next couple of days....
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