Ah, Sunday night.
Another week begins in the morning. I think I'm going to get to bed at a reasonable hour. We've got a reasonable day scheduled tomorrow, in spite of some "bonus" clinic time for me in the afternoon. I'll live.
My itunes locked up Firefox and wasted 10 minutes of quality writing time. My laptop is, unfortunately, starting to show her age. I suspect it doesn't help that I have my (not inconsequential) music library loaded onto her.
I'm listening to Boland tonight; found out today that he's out of commission until December because of his vocal cord polyp. Surgery scheduled in a few weeks. This makes me profoundly sad, particularly because anyone who knows me has heard me rave about how his voice has improved so much over the last couple of years. Sending good thoughts and prayers his direction....and I promise I'll buy LOTS of the new album to share with friends. What I've heard of it is too good not to do that.
I think I must spend another week on the "making mistakes, making amends" thing. I mean, I get it in the greater sense. But I also like to believe that I don't do too many apology-worthy things to other people, largely because I'm so negatively affected by bad interpersonal dynamics. Maybe I'm supposed to be making amends with myself for being such a harsh critic? See, I definitely have more thinking to do.
Random ramblings tonight. It's just one of those nights and I'm trying to get my brain slowed down so I can sleep. Easier said than done right now. I wish I knew what has me wound up. Actually, I have my suspicions I know (don't say the words "September call schedule" to me right now), but I keep telling myself I need to let that go. "Letting it go" is not a strength, unfortunately. I'm also trying to figure out how to not be reactive and have a 4-year-old tantrum response to this stupid call schedule thing and I honestly haven't a single idea how to achieve that other than to simply keep my mouth shut. I don't consider that an option, especially when the net result is that I get the "opportunity" to go 7 weeks without a weekend off. Crap.
Happiness/ Gratitude list, 3 August edition:
- Getting a little more help with the service early this morning. The sleep served me well.
- The geriatric kitty who is sitting next to me while I write. I would share her photo (because she really is beautiful), but she hates the camera. Hates. Silly girl.
- The grapes out back are nearly ripe!
- I have 3 more baby peaches on my peach tree. I keep hoping that at least one of them will ripen.
- Bedtime before 11 p.m. This is a good thing.
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Now playing: Jason Boland & The Stragglers - Backslider Blues
via FoxyTunes