An apology.
From The Boy.
For letting me down. For not giving me what I needed.
No, it doesn't change anything- though I suppose it gives me some peace that I wasn't a complete moron for sticking with things as long as I did.
And I'm humbled that he cares enough to come back to me and apologize.
It's not enough to make me go there again, though. I can't. There's too much hurt left in that place.
Happiness/ Gratitude List, 8 October 2008:
1. Snow is coming! The down side is that I had a barometric pressure headache all day today. The good news is that my allergies will clear up definitively until Spring.
2. My new morning yoga program. I'm doing short (20 minute-ish) yoga practices every morning. I love them- the transition of sleep to writing to yoga to life is working well (even though I've not had over 6 hours of sleep in nights).
3. Supper with a wonderful friend. I mean, Mazza is always good stuff. Mazza with one of my favorite smart, sassy women is IT.
4. Since Daddy got a rave last night, Mom gets one tonight. She's doing some amazing stuff right now by helping care for people we love a lot. Most importantly, I know she's looking forward to running amok at "home" when she takes a break next week. I'm awed at what she's been doing (and the grace with which she's been doing it), and I'm grateful she's taking some mental health time.
5. The wonderful support I'm getting from people in my life about the new work responsibilities. Even the people who tell me they'll miss me working on trauma with them have all said, "I can't imagine a more perfect thing for you to be doing." I feel richly blessed.....
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