I can tell by your eyes that there ain't no gettin' through, because you're Hell-bent on doing exactly what it is you've gotta do

1. Waking up this morning to an email from someone who made me smile. Realizing that he believes in me, maybe a little more than I do at times.
   
2. Yet another education admin thing coming my way, it seems. I'm a little scared of the time commitment because of the new curriculum commitment and not fully understanding what that is going to take yet. But being the assistant program director for the residents is honestly too good to pass up- and maybe the curriculum job came along to force my schedule to get cleared clinically so I can do both. A little bit scared, a little bit brave.
3. Stepping out on faith with the grant frustration. It may all still come out in the wash, and we may be able to work around the obstacles we hit. If not, I know that our timing isn't right. And that's okay.
4. Realizing that there's no point in torturing myself even trying to talk to The Boy at this point. It's done, it's been done, that's not going to change. All it does is make me feel bad, feel like I've somehow screwed up. Which I haven't- sure we both failed in the relationship, but at the end of it all he did fail me and he's admitted as much. On that count he's right.
   
5. The previously discussed tackle/hug/snuggle. SO needed today. I miss spending time with preschoolers. And the child that is left of me truly envies that kind of love and enthusiasm. How do I get that back?