A slightly tardy TGI this week- while I did get off service and make it to Florida then Puerto Rico, the whirling dervish effect has continued until about 20 minutes ago. I'm trying to break that tonight, including having a no-alarm-clock Sunday. I suspect it will be too icy to dogwalk early in the morning anyway so that helps me rationalize some planned laziness (not that I should have to at this point- I have MORE than earned it!).
Today I am trusting that once I get out of January (WHAT the Hell has this been besides chaos?!?) that I'll have some space to reflect on a number of things. I've had just enough time to develop the perspective that I'm not doing a number of things in the way I expect them to be done; maybe it's the two recent manuscript rejections, something that rarely happens to me, that have given me pause. Now I want to figure out how to get back to the place I want to be, doing things as I expect them to be done. Yes, I realize that to most everyone that my struggles with achievement right now would be undetectable. No, I'm not striving for perfection. I'm simply not where I believe that I should be.
Today I am grateful for the many, many things that are going "right" in my life right now. I do mean that in spite of my above lament- I really do have plenty of things that are working and working well. I suspect that I need to add a "what's working" list to my nightly gratitude list because it easy to lose perspective.
Today I am inspired by a tremendously brave lady whom I had the privilege of caring for over the last 4 1/2 months. I admitted her following her injury and I am SO glad I was there today for her discharge home. I'll confess that I am going to miss her grace, her strength, and her perseverance on a daily basis. People like her, my friends, are why I love what I get to do with my life- even when it's exhausting and all-consuming.
Now listening: Gary Allan "One More Time"Labels: TGIF